My husband and I have been talking about the difference between being acted upon and acting on situations. President Faust reminded me in his address, "Self-esteem: the Great Human Need," that we are more confident and feel better about ourselves when we aren't being let by habits. I think my poor reaction to why I see as negative events are often my worse cause of self-anger. Like today, I don't think I was as nice to my only team-member as I could have been. I think part of it is that I feel awkward "managing" her. But I make it worse I'm sure, by not being as kind as I could.
It is even worse when I say and do things to my husband that make him feel bad.
These are the things that make me lye awake at night not able to sleep. They eat at me and remind me of what an awful person I can be.
I will work tomorrow on being kinder, again, to those I work most closely with and especially to my dear husband.
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